SOCIETY: My friends and I are different. We are not like everyone else around us. This doesn’t mean that we are special rather it makes us confused and people around us sometimes scared.

People seem to be afraid of what they don’t understand. When we speak to them they think its gibberish. They cannot seem to be able to think outside the norms of the society. The society, the self obsessed, over achieving, celebrity life style obsessed society.

People cannot wrap their minds around the fact that a guy can lead a normal life without the constraints of a relationship. When I had a girl it felt like I was hanging, the noose started to tighten around my neck, I couldn’t breathe. I realized tough it was not her fault. I just needed a lot of time to understand and separate the arguments in my head.

That is when I realized I’m incapable of being in a relationship. I need solitude to keep my sanity. At times I think I’m a little too beyond repair.

Society can go to hell. As Serj Tankian (System of a Down – Vocals) said “Civilization is a failure, we need to try something else.” Maybe instead of doing stupid research such as, whether pandas can reproduce after watching porn. We need to start an experimental anarchist state and see how it might work. But I think if there is a nuclear holocaust we might end up with an anarchist state like it or not.

I would like to see a franchise coffee shop right after a nuclear holocaust and see how many patrons would desire to socialize.

War has always been a vital part of the human race. When we were not equipped with Kalashnikov’s and RPG’s, we waged war against the beasts with sticks and stones. It’s our way of reminding everyone that we are animals as well. It’s a brutal variation of Darwin’s survival of the fittest. We are just procrastinating the inevitable. We can all feel it building up like a volcano about to soak us with its beautiful horror.

Now is the time to prepare, preparation doesn’t mean you buy all the detergent available at the local supermarket and start making pipe bombs in your backyard. Preparation is when you understand all the luxuries might end in a blink of an eye and you most probably would end up scouring for the basic necessities.

Condition yourself for the worst. If you thought I was speaking about war, think again. This can also be an analogy for life.

CLOSER TO HEAVEN: They say a lunatic and a child are the only two people who are at peace. Their minds are fresh and fertile for thoughts to grow without any ego or any boundaries. I’m not a child anymore, my only hope is insanity the sooner I get there better for me and the people around me because I don’t know when I’m going to snap and bludgeon each one of their heads with a sledge hammer and feed them unworthy, egoistical brains to dogs. I need the cover of insanity that is ma destiny. I so want to leave everything behind and soar into my imagination. Leave the world behind; be in a world where humans are forbidden only you and the nature. Play with the clouds and swim in the vast ocean. A healthy me who can swim now that’s a dream. The only solution till then is hibernating.

Bears are smart species they should have been ruling the planet right now if only they had opposable thumb, I’m pretty sure if they did they would have started colonies in other planets by now. So to avoid humans just hibernate, sleep and be lost in your dreams where the most beautiful ones you can weave is only limited by your imagination and understanding of beauty and pleasure. The guy who said seven hours of sleep is what a human needs was most probably an over achieving creatively deprived freak who ended up solving the puzzles of life using integration in his grave. I can’t be any other person I am right now, I have come a long way in this so called sane world who people who have money are offered more money and the poor are squeezed until they bleed through their eyes. I would rather be insane and not be affected by all these. I hope I need a straight jacket by my next birthday. Don’t take this as a cry for help, because it isn’t this is just me chasing ma dream of losing it!!!!

IDEOLOGIES: Have you seen people go down in flames because of their ideologies. I have, lot of them. They make assumptions arrived upon by a single instance in their life when they felt something never experienced before and said to themselves this is what I will do for the rest of my life, these are my ideologies and I will stick to them no matter what. But life is as unpredictable as the mood of a woman. You might think something is wrong in a certain circumstance but it might be right or sometimes the only solution in another.

For instance killing someone is considered as a gruesome act or a sin in almost all the cultures damning those whose who commit this heinous act to the depths of hell for all eternity, but killing is considered noble in warfare. The one who rips the heads off his enemies rather the enemies of his beloved motherland is considered a hero and showered with praises and guaranteed a place at the feet of the almighty himself. Isn’t this hypocrisy???

Ideologies are like this. Many don’t understand them entirely and end up slitting their own throats unknowingly in the process. Only when they are bleeding from their fatal wound do they understand that the situation didn’t call upon their ideology rather their common sense.

People change, change is the only constant thing in the universe. Every waking moment you are a different person. Every experience you have makes you look at the world differently. Perceptions change. Depth of understanding increases. I may contradict myself over and over again. I may read something that I wrote two months ago and wonder how I could have written that or I may even contradict myself the very next line you are about to read. Internal arguments galore, inevitable turmoil of the soul. So how can I have ideologies when I don’t know myself or see myself as the reference point to the ever so confusing world around me??? Do I want to know the world around me??? Or do I just want to know myself. What about ideologies, what good are they???

I have a strong moral compass can I use the same as my ideology??? If as I said ideologies should change over a period of time should morality change as well????

STUPIDITY:Some people are just fucking crazy, they have no clue about what they are and are just chasing down someone else’s dream since that dude painted a pretty picture in front of his creatively deprived mother fuckin eyes. Now all of them around him are fuckin goin crazy because this dude has no clue what his dream is and since he has a pea sized brain matter with fungus infected grey cells by the time his friend told him his dream he was half asleep and half bored. So now he has this lil distorted image of his dream in that vaccum filled skull of his, which he is cramming down every innocent bystander’s throats, they can’t swallow it nor can they spit it on his fucking face.

This is not the only problem these kinda people have a very short attention span. They have this very narrow vision of things too. They don’t try and understand people just jump into conclusions, like a guy is gay or someone is a slut. Man stop doin that you have no clue how many people are gunning for you in their minds. If only imagination was real you would die the most horrible death over and over again.

That’s why I say human stupidity never ceases to amaze me it would surpass human intelligence by miles. I say this because a scientist may attempt something say for a million times. A stupid guy on the other hand will make the same fucking mistake all his life and take pride in it.

ENVY:Its such a bad thing. I used to get really jealous when i see happy people. Now i jus don't coz i know wat i am and how strong i am i also know tat another person cannot be me. i love tat i'm completely fucked up, so much so tat i can at any point of time jus lose it n go on a killin spree. This makes me happy coz tat way i'll have a final blow out. I surely have da cojones 4 tat. Well da only people tat i really get jealous of are da celebrities so i'm kinda self in tat respect. My jealously emotion unlike ma psychotic emotion is completey under ma control.
Now the interesting bit, i've seen a lotta ppl completely jealous of others and tearin their hair off to bring the other person down who they are jealous. I mean how can u think abt a normal person like tat who u see every day. Extremely wierd in ma book. Moral of the small unintersting rather meaning less blabber that u jus read is, stop bein someone else, stop pretending, stop conspiring and get over it!!!!

CRAZY: well da definition of tis word is so fuckin crazy in itself. its an irony. if i go
on a killin spree, takin out all da dirt off the society ur crazy. in our society someone
who sits in da lap of luxury and preaches to a million ppl is a saint. while his little
helpers collect money frm da hard workin ppl of our country by showin them a perpetual shortcut 2 nirvana, tat fuckin bastard of a saint will be suckin on da juicy neck of a 15 yr old naive grl who is also on da search of nirvana. shit. tis is wat it has come down 2. fake gods r even rulin da radio waves televised in every goddamn language. no subliminal msgs here like some believe jus a lotta gibberish 2 confuse da ppl jus enuf 2 open up accounts in the Caribbean. wen r we gonna wake up and realise wat we have become. we r chasin thins tat don exist we fill our minds wit alternate realities where we have have our own right and wrong. da best part is 4 everythin we depend on da media these days if some reporter says cricketers r paid a lot we need 2 restrict it we automatically agree. baseless debates galore. we r addicted 2 caffine is it jus da notion tat drinkin an expensive coffee in a franchise coffee shop makes us happy. it doesn't make me happy, i tried it pisses da shit outta me. well maybe i'm crazy. everythin needs 2 change but how???
soon ppl wit minds like me (i donno whether tey exist) r gonna wake up and decide wats
enuf is enuf and take our society our country frm da hands of da crappy irresponsible media
who nowadays r tellin us wat 2 eat, wat 2 wear and who is sexy. maybe it'll take a few yrs
but trust me its happen like minded ppl r gonna come 2gether and there is gonna be a revolution 4 da better. maybe ten everyone of us can be completely crazy. a crazy world sounds good 2 me!!!

CAN PALMS BE READ- somethin really wierd happened 2 me da other day. a lady said she wud read ma palm and do it 4 free. since it was free and i had time i volunteered. i'm a strong believer in da fact tat, once u know ur future u have no future. anyways she got it spot on she asked me if i experience any halucinations frm time 2 time. i cudn't believe wat i was hearin coz no one has eva asked me tat ppl usually thnk i'm sane. i was like wats goin on is it was real??? ma sis was sittin nxt 2 me so i knew tis had 2 be real. tis is somethin tat is true abt me so hesitantly i agreed. halucinations r beautiful. even if u lock me up in a completely dark room 4 days il survive coz i a gotta brain tats crazy i can event ma own world witout ma knowledge and actually enjoy tem. i remember many funny incidents tat happened 2 me wen i was a kid. i was left alone most part of da day wen i was a kid. i didn't have any friends 2 play around wit so i used 2 be in ma own world and we lived in da first floor we had a huge terrace and we had stairs tat went up. one day i was playin alone in ma so called world and i donno wat i was doin i fell frm da stairs and woke up after a few minutes ten i knew in ma world i din't have those stairs and i fell. tat was freaky but i cudn't fuckin control ma mind, for tat matter even now i can't. ten another incident happened agin wen i was abt 8 or 9. i was sittin on ma stairs thnkin abt somethin i see tis guy comin 2wards me he looked wierd he was thin and had a long bushy beard he approached me and gave me a toy da ones filled wit water in em tat u get in fairs now i dono whether tis guy is 4 real i kept starin at him thnkin how da fuck is tis happenin ten ma mom came out and explained he was an uncle tat i had never met b4. i tel u i was fuckin freaked out i thought i lost ma mind tat day. but it rocks 2 have a kickass brain which can do wateva it wants but da flip side is i need a lotta sleep compared 2 others coz every wakin moment i'm thnkin abt a million things in ma mind.

CLARITY: its a beautiful thin i'm not talkin abt clarity as in wen u can see somethin clearly. i'm talkin abt clarity of the mind wen there is jus one thought in ur mind and evrythin slows down. no i aient talkin abt matrix either. wen u have felt tis u'll know wat i'm talkin abt. its very hard 2 explain, u realise everythin is fake in tis life. tat moment tat fraction of a moment is jus blissful. wen it happened da only thin tat was ruinin tat moment was i cud hear ma pillon sayin "Giri no matter wat happens don apply da breaks it doesn't matter even if u ram into a truck. CLARITY.......

The way they screwed up cricket:its a crazy game and we r all addicted. i remember da good old days wen i used 2 watch cricket on espn and learnt da game frm da masters, it helped me so much tat i was selected 4 da col team. bac ten da presenters did not care who da player was gave their most honest fuckin opinions on da face and we cud even see da gods of cricket makin mistakes and bein pointed out ruthlessly. those were da days of geoffery boycott, sunil gavaskar and harsha bogle. then these fuckin bastards sold da fuckin rite some numb skulled jerk offs at set max. now these guys ruined da entire experience by havin a 2 hr pre show called "extraa fucked up hr" (as u can see extra is spelt wit double a, yeah u bastard i know ma spellin sucks 2!!). da most insultin part was tat fuckin inbred bitch "mandira bedi" hostin da show. i can't stand her. as ma frnd says she is da best contraceptive.u look at once ur so called erection jus walks outta da window. she doesn't know any goddam shit abt cricket. she i've heard her ask questions like if in 10 overs u can score 90 runs why can't u score 450 runs??? coz bitch u take 2 dicks in ur ass 4 2hrs it doesn't mean u can do it 4 10 hrs straight on the other hand may be u can. u definetly can. now lets talk abt da others, charu sharma licks every guests ass shamelessly on national television. kris srikanth thinks he understands cricket i dono how he even was a cricketer. mohinder amarnath is da official bard ala cacofonix. ten da guests da goddamn fuckin guests. tis bitch farah khan was da guest. i know wat is she doin in a cricket preshow i dono. i thnk its a conspiracy frm ppl who hate me 2 get me 2 kill myself. she was asked who her favorite cricketer was b4 some indian match and she said, "sachin, but has he retired already, coz i dono!!!!". fuck u goddam edit tat part out plz stop torturin us. da way tey show da score card is also screwed up if u r in a hurry u never know wat over is goin on coz tey never show it as if tey r some hot models boobs and da less u reviel da better. wat bullshit!!! now lets talk abt da indian team. on paper we had a very good team but i can understand these things happen. i'm disappointed but i do have faith in ma screwed up team tey are gonna bounce bac. da only relief was pakistan beaten by ireland, made ma day. lets come 2 da worst part now anybody remember "ooh aah india". da guy who made tat ad should be cloned and killed every single day til da nxt world............we'll win!!!!!

WARNING:"If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this is useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all who claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think everything you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told you should want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned"

ps:not ma original but love it.

AGE: i used 2 never understand tis. ppl always told me
2 respect a person's age. i used 2 ask tem wat da fuck for.
why shud a respect a person who has lived for abot 90 yrs
rather survived 4 90 yrs who is dumb as a dodo. i have met
so called elders who make one fucked up decision after da
other, if u sit down speak 2 tem and tell em tat wat tey are
doin is wrong either tey make fun of u or ignore u sayin, "u r
2 young 2 understand". no matter wat u do. u paint a picture
and explain it 2 tem like u will 2 a 2 yr old kid still nothin.
after tey have fucked it up completely tey have tis lame ass
explanation, sayin i understand tat it was a mistake il never
repeat it again. we have 2 learn frm our mistakes. i say tat is
just plain fucked up. if u r gonna learn everythin frm ur own
mistake imagine how many mistakes u have 2 make in ur life
time 2 learn everythin. i say learn frm other ppls mistakes
tats da best way. now comin bac 2 da topic. i understand
now why we shud respect age coz tey have gone so far in
their lives not killin themselves tats a huge achievement. i
donno whether il earn tat respect.......

OVER: gettin over certain ppl is easy, gettin over others is fuckin difficult. especially wen tat person meant a lot 2 u n wen u were completely committed to her. many say "move on dude, it wasn't meant 2 be", others say " dude, i knew it frm da begginin it wasn't gonna work u r frm
2 different worlds",others just say" i never believed it anyways". there u go, these r not da things u wanna hear believe me. first remark is damn simple yet very hard to execute. second one is true but again it kinda pisses me off. the third one well ma friends wat da hell else do u expect frm them. lets come bac to da buisness of movin on. well i no longer watch anythin on
television- no romantic songs, no funny serials(somehow all of em include love and shit), no movies involvin even da slightest bit of the L word. i just stick 2 a lotta cricket (thank heavens its always on), ten a lotta history cahnnel, discovery and nat geo. thanx 2 dis i now know who
ernesto che guevara was. also who fujimoro was and wat he did 2 peru. believe me it makes sense. i still have ma bike tats a big relief. wen all tis shit was happennin i took off frm home. all nighter with ma friends we jus rode till 2 am. well ma friend was ridin. we even got booked by da cops but was worth it. i felt really gud wen ma friend tis totally fucked up individual called varun told me mine was da second best bike he had ridden after a kawasaki ninja. now tats huge. ninja is a 998cc 162 bhp bike. felt good actually great. we also beat a fuckin 180cc avenger guy with ma measly 135cc bike with a pillon on. i feel bad for such guys actually u know wat i thnk tey
deserve it, morons. but everyday can't be like tis coz everythin else reminds me of her tats fucked up really. wenever ma phone rings i wish its her. to sum it up da way i feel is like tis--

Like Suicide
Heard it from another room
Eyes were waking up just to fall asleep
Love's like suicide
Dazed out in a garden bed
With a broken neck lays my broken gift
Just like suicide

And my last ditch
Was my last brick
Lent to finish her
Finish her

Bit down on the bullet now
I had a taste so sour
I had to think of something sweet
Love's like suicide
Safe outside my gilded cage
With an ounce of pain
I wield a ton of rage
Just like suicide

With eyes of blood
And bitter blue
How I feel for you
I feel for you

She lived like a murder
How she'd fly so sweetly
She lived like a murder
But she died
Just like suicide

chris cornell is god helps me through
everythin, be it thru soundgarden or
audioslave. he jus rocks!!!!

THINGS 2 DO: things 2 do wen u pissed or depressed abt somethin but can't do shit abt it

# well tis one is obvious if u can get ur hands on some dope. tats it. smoke it up. a slight word of caution though, there a 2 kinds of people- the ones tat cry after smokin or the ones tat laugh hysterically once u r high. if u r one of those guys who cries, tis is not da proper time

# take a long shower- tis really helps believe me. maybe tats y tey show it all da movies. for me it has 2 be hot shower coz cold ones make me feel more pathetic.

# talk 2 a clown- tis is real fun, i can't call ma friend a clown but harry sure knows how 2 change ma mood. he speaks abt all kinds a crap and i always feel better.

# nirvana- man o man does tis rock or wat. its like wen u r listenin 2 kurt especially unplugged u automatically feels better n ten u always dream of doin wat he did so elegently took flight at his peak wanna do tat shud reach da summit soon. c it feels better already.

# paint- tis is kinda wierd coz u can't draw or paint wen u r depressed but u can sure paint ur room or atleast windows. get some paint especially black n paint it all, trust me it feels better.

# talk 2 varun- tats dempsy GOD 4 all u ppl. he is a crazy guy who always has a practical head on his shoulder. he is smart n wen u talk 2 him u kinda feel tat u r smart 2. he can always fix ur head.

# RIDE (ya baby)- ma favorite. i aien't talkin abt takin a long ride like some morons do, u do tat wen u r really happy n wanna experience da joy of ridin. wat i meant here was, well lemme tell u wat i do. i got a 2 stroke beauty(more like a sexy beast). remove ma regular filter fix da high performance one chose a busy yet neat road. RIP RIP RIP. u shud be hittin least 100 in busy traffic piss off ppl but fly. believe me u won't have a chance 2 thnk of anythin else n wen u stop da bike if ur legs r tremblin tats a good sign. wow love ridin. u won't thnk of anythin else 4 atleast a couple of hours. love ma bike......

REALITY: have u ever met someone so special for whom u r ready 2 redo everythin u did wrong. i have, it feels good 2 find someone who walks into ur life and britens it up wit a smile .it fills ur life wit purpose, a reason 2 live. il tel u wat i did. i met my past again i met da guy who stabbed me into heart frm da back. i didn't kill him, i didn't slap him. i didn't know wat 2 do,
then i thought abt her n my anger melted as if it was insignificant. i went ahead and spoke wit him. he was sweatin, i acted as if nothin happened. it felt wierd, it felt as if i lost somethin every close 2 my heart. did i lose myself in tat moment? i don't know. jus her name was enuf i thought. ma friend was right there wit me, he looked at me as if it was my funeral he didn't expect me 2 do tat. i come home ten tat person who u care 4 more than anythin wants 2 leave u. is tis 4 real? why is tis happenin? there is one thing though wen i go thru shit in ma life lotta good things happen to people around me. its like i attract misery. maybe its a good thing coz these ppl r very close 2 ma heart. tey say tat "its better to love n lose than never to have loved". i don't believe in tis. tis quote is 4 pussys who had no sense of problems in their life 4 someone like me its bullshit. its like if u know there is no light 4 won't crave 4 it but if someone shows u its there jus 2 tease u n take it away it hurts more.i really appreciate one of my friends who doesn't wanna have anythin 2 do wit love he is smart n he is right, if u get someone u love its da greatest thing ever its like heaven but 99% of da times it doesn't work n it hurts like nothin u ever felt in ur life. one thing real is pain n i embrace it.......ma minds sayin "welcome back loner"

NICE GUY: i realized somethin recently. it is da fact tat i am a real nice guy. it sucks bein one coz no matter how hard i try not 2 be its like its hard wired in ma system. da problem wit bein a nice guy is tat u bleed wen people ask u 2 but at da end of da day u got no one at ur side wen u r all bled out. its like a piece of sugarcane. everone wants 2 jus squeeze so fuckin hard tat u start bleedin from ur eyes. tey won't leave an ounce of blood tey want it all but drop the rest 4 da maggets 2 relish on. nobody seems 2 even notice coz tey say its normal. some people jus take it 2 da nxt level. in one way da people who leave u 2 die after u have bled out ur soul r much better than da people who skin u out show u dreams so beautiful u thnk u r in heaven ten out of no where u feel da searin pain in ur back n u see a blade stickin out of ur chest after tat tey wil decapitate u n take ur head as a trophy. after all tis tey say hope i didn't hurt u. wat shud i thnk wit da pea sized brain i got. shud i stop bein a good guy, i can't coz i wanna be true 2 myself. shud i stop meetin new ppl now tats a solution. 2 thnk abt it y do i need new ppl i got enuf ppl around. i got responsibilies hangin over my head like a million razor edged swords. the most important thing is i stopped livin 4 myself a long time ago. y shud i start livin 4 myself now. its not rite. it was like i was born dead. i always wanted 2 die so wen i am dead inside y shud i thnk of livin now? its a bad idea real bad.

TRIPTI: she is tripti 4 some. tj n trips 2 others. 4 me she is simply angel coz tats wat she is an angel. i met her on da 25th dec. 4 all u fools out its christmas. i was depressed more than ever tat day n she came into my life n rescued me. actually she came online. i wish she could c da image i have of her in my mind. she is beautiful. i bet she is beautiful in person 2. she is so kind n sweeeeeeeeeet. she has got an amazin voice but i don't understand y she is so concerned abt speakin 2 much. if she doesn't she is robbin ppl of tat glimpse at heaven tat tey reach wen listenin 2 her voice. i asked her out, now i feel really bad tat i did coz i can never come close 2 her expectations n i know tat there r guys who can give much more than i can ever think of. the only downside is dat she never sleeps. i guess angels don't coz tey have 2 rescue all da bruised souls out there like me. thank u angel. luv u a lot never wanna let go of u.

ps: i can't believe i did it i wrote somethin without a single curse word. angel u sure gimme da strength 2 kick ass. DAMMIT.........

REVENGE: revenge sucks like my grandmas ass but guess wat vengence rocks. i wanna kill 4 ppl as of now. but i don't wanna do it quick. i want them 2 suffer tiil their last breath. i wanna kill teir loved ones first right in front of them. strip them naked fuck em and take a sharp knife n start cuttin. first the tounge n the lips n then make cuts all over their body, scrap the flesh off while doin tis u need to hear the knife scrape the bones n make tat sweet music. the final part has to be the eyes pierce the knife n pop it out n put it in the mouth of the half dead body, make it chew it without the lips it would look great the fluids oozin outta the mouth n between the teeth. wen the person is dead get an axe an tear open the chest cut out the heart cut the head as well n kick it thru the window. head shot(lol). now move on to the person u wanna kill. but here is where it gets wierd don't kill them just break their legs n hands they should suffer 4 ever, keep them on life support if u want don't let them die. i forgot some thin record everythin n if u can effrord it keep them captive n make them look at it 4 the rest of their lives.........

LOVE: fuckin over rated like crazy. she is a damn bitch who bends over for anyone ,anywhere but guys don't fall 4 her. her pussy is like a cheese grater with a suction like a black hole. she will rip ur skin apart from ur dick till ur flesh is naked to the flies who r hoverin over n havin a luxury meal. them she will suck ur blood out like a leech witha yeast infected pussy. but guess wat u r still breathin u can still feel her if u haven't got it yet, u better u ass she is the damn BITCH i warned u abt. love should be banned ppl who practise it killed by feedin them to a pac of rabied dogs with foamy mouths. kids born outta love should be burnt to death n the girls impaled while they r alive. love no one n the world just opens up. u r not bound anymore. u can do everythin immoral. chuck love n move on, if u don't i warn u u'll never know wat happened till u find a damn spear with ur head on it...........BEWARE

killin people: how would u kill people? with ur hands? or with ur mind? i thnk its da mind. plan everythin to the most minute of the details. execute in ur brain. think abt the elemnts involved, wat can go wrong? this is an important steps. if u want it real bad u will thnk ur self every wakin moment coz u want it so bad. u r focussed u cut urself every day just 2 remind u of the pain. pain is life there is nothin like pain. remember wen u were a kid how u loved peelin off the wounds wen they were heelin, the pain was beautiful it reminded u of the accident its the same. self mutilation i get it now..........

ASSHOLES:i love the company that i'm in right now. my friends of the last 3 years. wen i joined engineering i had made up my mind not to have close bonds with anyone. i had suferred from my closest of friends back stabbin me so i was reluctant to make any friends. i also knew that it was hard to find anyone of my frequency or who os as miserable as me. but i was totally wrong. i met a group a bunch of guys who were absolutely unique n crazy. guess what they became my friends.this group is so special that it feels more like we are comrades in a battle or somethin, that is the kind of bond we have. everyone in the group has one talent or the other. out of the six, three of us are artists, two are musicians . two of us can write articles, three of us can write songs and 5 us can play very good football. some pocess more than one talent. this is unbelivable by any standards. everyone of us has real problems or have faced real problems in our lives. everone of us is hurt or has a wound which they are tryin to conceal but failin miserably. if we have a problem with any other member of the group we say that to their face until they accept that they have a problem yet we are together. we all have a bad habit of smokin maybe thats because nobody in the group is keen on livin. every time some one we know is killed in an accident we look up and curse "stop foolin around you could have taken me instead". i know this is not gonna last for ever i can see it crackin up little by little. crank says he is gonna quit engineerin. he is one guy who understands everythin including my jokes. i know this is the beginning of the end. good things come in small doses and misery loves company.........